in a perfect world i got a sudden fever yesterday and was unable to attend work this morning :(

It was so horrible! Thank goodness my parents were there for me. They helped me so much today. They knew what I was suppose to eat, what I had to do to reduce the pain, and they got me everything i needed.

Next year, i'm going to have to do it all on my own without them.

A few nights ago, I had a sudden realization.
Although these past few months have all been about school and friends, I left out one of the most important things: my family.

I realized that my family would not be there for me forever.
Growing up has its many advantages: we learn to grow, and we learn to be more independent
but with its advantages come sadness.
As i grow up, so do my loved ones around me.
a few nights ago, it hit me that my grampa would one day be gone.
not only my grampa, but my mother and father as well.

death is a natural part of life; this i know
but it's so hard to accept once it really happens to you.
my family will not stay this way forever, we will all age and i will one day have a family of my own.

but honestly,
i would give up everything I have and just stop time if it means that everything around me will stay this way forever.


I'm not ready to let it go ...
I don't want to let it go ...  ¶ 7/14/2009 08:53:00 PM