livelaughlovekaren
Thursday, January 14, 2010
it ain't perfect, but it's worth it.
the past few days have been like a complete blur to me. I've been spending more and more time with Justin, and i have put him ahead of everyone else. even as i sit here typing this, he's sleeping right behind me. I've always thought that girls who put their boyfriend first before everyone else have no self-control, but now that i am in this position, i can see where they are coming from.
yesterday everyone got ready to go to 'Shiver', a McMaster CASS club event that was held at 1280. Justin didn't have a piece of photo ID, (since he's not 18 yet and all), so i already had a feeling that he wasn't going to get in. We went to Jen's res for a pre-drink first, and then we all went to 1280. As predicted, Justin couldn't get in so we just went back to res while the others partied it up!
It didn't turn out to be that bad. Ever since that day, we've become alot closer. He even passed out on my bed that night since we stayed up until 5-6am. (he's a big baby when it comes to his sleep). I can honestly say that I feel really safe with him. Whenever i'm with him, it's like nothing else can go wrong. I'm not even afraid to be stupid and wack with him. I'm never embarrassed around him. I don't ever want this to end, ever.
There's also the issue of housing lately. Daphne's sister knows a friend that's selling a 7 person house. We called first dibs on it, but apparently he has a sister that has friends who are also interested in the house. boo. SO FAR, my roomates are going to be: Daphne, Susane, Eva, Jenn, Jason, Matthew. WOOOOOOO PARTY IN THE USA.
Justin said that Tim already has a place to stay, so he's kinda left alone. I'm kinda scared of living with him because if anything happens then everyone else will feel really awkwarded out. But if we can't squeeze him in, then he might have no where to go :( hopefully he gets to live with us. Daphne has to ask the owner still though. I guess we just have to make sure that nothing happens in the next year. :P
Alot of my friends went home this weekend :( The only people still here are probably eva and justin. Tim went to square one to shop (SPOILED MUCH.)
I'm waiting for Justin to wake up so we can go eat.
OMGGG HURRY AND WAKE UP PLEASE. I'M STARVING. ¶ 1/14/2010 09:45:00 PM 1 Comments
yesterday everyone got ready to go to 'Shiver', a McMaster CASS club event that was held at 1280. Justin didn't have a piece of photo ID, (since he's not 18 yet and all), so i already had a feeling that he wasn't going to get in. We went to Jen's res for a pre-drink first, and then we all went to 1280. As predicted, Justin couldn't get in so we just went back to res while the others partied it up!
It didn't turn out to be that bad. Ever since that day, we've become alot closer. He even passed out on my bed that night since we stayed up until 5-6am. (he's a big baby when it comes to his sleep). I can honestly say that I feel really safe with him. Whenever i'm with him, it's like nothing else can go wrong. I'm not even afraid to be stupid and wack with him. I'm never embarrassed around him. I don't ever want this to end, ever.
There's also the issue of housing lately. Daphne's sister knows a friend that's selling a 7 person house. We called first dibs on it, but apparently he has a sister that has friends who are also interested in the house. boo. SO FAR, my roomates are going to be: Daphne, Susane, Eva, Jenn, Jason, Matthew. WOOOOOOO PARTY IN THE USA.
Justin said that Tim already has a place to stay, so he's kinda left alone. I'm kinda scared of living with him because if anything happens then everyone else will feel really awkwarded out. But if we can't squeeze him in, then he might have no where to go :( hopefully he gets to live with us. Daphne has to ask the owner still though. I guess we just have to make sure that nothing happens in the next year. :P
Alot of my friends went home this weekend :( The only people still here are probably eva and justin. Tim went to square one to shop (SPOILED MUCH.)
I'm waiting for Justin to wake up so we can go eat.
OMGGG HURRY AND WAKE UP PLEASE. I'M STARVING. ¶ 1/14/2010 09:45:00 PM 1 Comments
Monday, January 11, 2010
You Appear Just Like A Dream To Me
this past weekend was definitely a memorable one. Friday night was when Canny and Gary came to mac for a night because we were all planning to go to waterloo on saturday. They got themselves lost a couple of times while finding their way to mac. hamilton's pretty weird like that; there are so many one way streets and small tiny streets.
when they got to mac, we all went out for pho and then went over to hedden. at first, it was so obvious that canny and gary were expecting a bigger 'party' from us. it's not like we didn't warn them -.-" when we started to get into the drinking games, thats when it got better. i drank around 3-4 shots and i got a headache, in which i puked. can't believe how soft i am LOL. we stuck around for a bit after that to get sobered up, then we went back to bates. that night, i slept pretty well because we slept around 3 (which is considered early for me). Canny told me the next day that he didn't sleep at all because of Gary and Eva LOL. kinda sucked for him.
so saturday afternoon we went to waterloo. Justin & I had to catch the bus because there wasn't enough room in the car. we all arrived in waterloo at around 7pm at night. we played drinking games that night and basically just hung out. we played games like beer pong and king. i also had a talk with richard so i hope things will turn out okay now. Xin's roomate got mad at us for being too loud so we had to accommodate to that. when we finally went to bed, justin and i slept on chairs in the living room while gary, eva and matthew slept on the floor in xin and calvin's room. the chair was SO uncomfortable for me. every time i moved the chair made a sound, it kinda sucked.
In the morning, we went to eat at a nearby bbt place and then just went back to xins res for the remaining time. by night time, i realized that the buses dont run from loo to the bus terminal, so we had to get canny to drive us to the terminal. it took a while because the roads were so confusing T_T. we got there just in time for the bus though. the bus ride home was really nice because the sky was clear and there were constellations in the sky. justin sucks at them and he didn't know any so i had to point it out for him.
i'm really glad i got to hang out with my friends this weekend. even though everyone wasn't there, it really made my weekend. i was also really glad that justin was there with me. i know it must've been weird for him, but him being there with me made it so much more fun. he actually came all that way when he didnt even know any of them. i'm so grateful to have someone like him =)
now its time to hardcore nerd. ¶ 1/11/2010 12:45:00 PM 0 Comments
when they got to mac, we all went out for pho and then went over to hedden. at first, it was so obvious that canny and gary were expecting a bigger 'party' from us. it's not like we didn't warn them -.-" when we started to get into the drinking games, thats when it got better. i drank around 3-4 shots and i got a headache, in which i puked. can't believe how soft i am LOL. we stuck around for a bit after that to get sobered up, then we went back to bates. that night, i slept pretty well because we slept around 3 (which is considered early for me). Canny told me the next day that he didn't sleep at all because of Gary and Eva LOL. kinda sucked for him.
so saturday afternoon we went to waterloo. Justin & I had to catch the bus because there wasn't enough room in the car. we all arrived in waterloo at around 7pm at night. we played drinking games that night and basically just hung out. we played games like beer pong and king. i also had a talk with richard so i hope things will turn out okay now. Xin's roomate got mad at us for being too loud so we had to accommodate to that. when we finally went to bed, justin and i slept on chairs in the living room while gary, eva and matthew slept on the floor in xin and calvin's room. the chair was SO uncomfortable for me. every time i moved the chair made a sound, it kinda sucked.
In the morning, we went to eat at a nearby bbt place and then just went back to xins res for the remaining time. by night time, i realized that the buses dont run from loo to the bus terminal, so we had to get canny to drive us to the terminal. it took a while because the roads were so confusing T_T. we got there just in time for the bus though. the bus ride home was really nice because the sky was clear and there were constellations in the sky. justin sucks at them and he didn't know any so i had to point it out for him.
i'm really glad i got to hang out with my friends this weekend. even though everyone wasn't there, it really made my weekend. i was also really glad that justin was there with me. i know it must've been weird for him, but him being there with me made it so much more fun. he actually came all that way when he didnt even know any of them. i'm so grateful to have someone like him =)
now its time to hardcore nerd. ¶ 1/11/2010 12:45:00 PM 0 Comments
Monday, January 4, 2010
caught in the middle
the break's finally over and we're all back at mac! i'm currently on the first day of second term and i'm already not use to it. school's a bummer :(
yesterday richard asked me a question that really shocked me. he asked if there was any way we could get back together after school ends. it caught me by surprise because firstly, i thought he was over everything because of the way we've been lately. we haven't really spoken so i honestly thought he was uncomfortable with everything so i let it go. secondly, i thought he would have hated me by now. and thirdly, i thought he knew about things with justin & i. i guess i was wrong about everything.
i really don't know why its bugging me so much. eva told me that i have to tell him the truth and that i can't be nice about these things. matthew also told me the same thing and to not give him hope by saying 'i don't know.' tim said that i shouldn't be thinking about it at all because i have justin. i don't have the heart to tell him straight up, but if i don't, i'm going to hurt him even more.
i also showed justin what richard said, and i don't know what he thinks about it either. it must really suck to be him. why am i such a bother when it comes to these things. maybe i shouldn't be doing this. he deserves someone who won't give him any trouble at all. i don't want to make him feel vulnerable or intimidate him in any way by this. maybe i'm doing something wrong right now. i feel like i'm hurting everyone with everything i do.
i know that i'm good with the way things are right now. though i can't say that i'm entirely comfortable with justin yet, i know that i really care about him and that he makes me happy? but maybe sometimes liking someone doesn't always mean things work out. am i overthinking it? i really dont know. i just know that i feel horrible about everything.
i don't know what i should do.
help :(
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Friday, January 1, 2010
a new year: 2009 - 2010 countdown
¶ 1/01/2010 06:30:00 PM 0 Comments
TODAY IS A BRAND NEW YEAR.
NEW YEARS RESOLUTION:
1. do better in school. (most important)
2. stop swearing as much (and watch what i say because i've grown to say what i think)
3. spend more time with family
4. love my friends & family more LOL
5. keep my relations with people well.
Yesterday was new years eve and it was def. a memorable experience. miranda, justin, matthew and i went to watch avatar at silvercity in the afternoon. FIRST OFF, we went late and
had to get horrible seats. we literally had to lift our heads up to see the screen. SECOND, it was even worse because we watched it in 3d. i had a horrible headache 15 minutes into the movie. REGARDLESS, it was a good movie. THUMBS UP!
after the movie, we met up with tim and went to eat. then we all headed downtown for the countdown. matthew met up with lisa, jonathan and casy first. we met up with everyone else later (garychan, richard, canny, xin, jeffrey, haoming). mmhs reunion!! :)
while walking to nathan philips square, kenneth and eva managed to find us. OMG, it felt so good to see eva! i swear we screamed and hugged for at least 5 minutes. I MISSED MY ROOOMIEE :( its cuz im so use to seeing her everyday.
When we got to NPS, it was already so crowded. xin wanted to go to the front so everyone was pushing to the front. it was actually so fun because we had to go through a sea of people. THERE WAS NEVER A DULL MOMENT. There were performances from Karl Wolf, Faber Drive, Kardinal and others. There were also fireworks.
after countdown was maddd crazy. it was so crowded everywhere: the streets, the subway, the bus. i can actually say that during the time we were trying to get out of nathan philips square, all i had to move were my feet because everyone was basically sandwiched.
I have a feeling this year is going to be a great year :)
